Oh baby, when they made me, they broke the mould
Pavlove, Fall Out Boy
Maybe I'm past my prime
Riding buses or trains makes me want to close my eyes and lean my head against the window. The sound of the rest of the world passing by me is like a lullaby. It’s a gentle roar, almost silent in its own way. How easy it would be to just lower your eyelids and pretend that the sounds you hear are actually waves, that you are standing at the edge of the world at the very last body of water, and all the ripples of your life become larger and larger till they engulf you entirely and you know how to swim, really you do, but at this stage it doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. You just drift along the ocean of your life and think about how one person could carry so much inside them. And the more you think, the more you wish you didn’t, until you quietly slip your head underwater and take big deep breaths till your lungs are living life to the fullest so you don’t have to.
NATALIE'S BACCKK
YESSSS
OMG,
MINDFUCK
YESSSSSSSS
yay, now i can be fat and anti social and failing school once again!
NO WAIT, I’VE ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS.
You could buy Hip Hop Abs? (“Workout with Sean-T!”)
Taking ecstasy makes you want to love everyone
Failing school? DROP OUT! Who needs an education anyway? BLOG YOUR WAY TO SUCCESS
I am so tired of doing things for other people
The next 3-4 days are Aelya days.
I am signing out 4-5 novels from the library. I am NOT going to the goddamn movies with you on Friday. I am staying home. I am brewing several large mugs of Earl Grey tea. I am putting on socks with peace signs on them. I am curling up on the suede armchair next to one of the windows in the family room.
And I am going to read.
